Reciprocate Me

I got this smile for you
and I’ll wear it for you everyday
It tells me what to do
and what to say.

And now I know

just how to please your keen eye
gazing through my hollow mindset everyday.
I know now what to do
and not to say.

And now I see

just how you felt for me-
the lies you told me everyday.
I know now I should leave;
You know I’ll stay.

And now I can’t
help but surrender to these endless thoughts of you.
And now I won’t
elude your keen eye’s gaze no matter what I do.

Your testing grounds, I cannot be.
You have me (if vicariously).
I gave you all I have so please, just
please,

reciprocate me.

Feel Good Drag

She said,
“I’m here for you,”

she said that we could stay here
for awhile

Her boyfriend gone, vicarious,
and no prospect beyond her smile

Lips that need no introduction                                   I know you know
Tell me who’s the greater sin

We can just pretend…
and then we’ll only need pretend within

This was over before,
before it ever began                                                        right?
                                                                        

 

                                                                                      I know….

 

it’s okay

Nightmares

I can feel them coming…
the dreams
They come in the night
to haunt my sleep

But tonight I’m ready

No
I am, really…

They are right, in their presence

It’s okay

I’m okay…

I understand them
I am at peace
with them
My mind… it… can rationalise…

No, it’s okay…
Tonight…
Not tonight
they won’t take me… tonight…

please don’t take me tonight…